contradictions = you + me = true love

His never ending - fairy tale, happily ever after, ending: lies
left my mind as the infallible characterization of a paradox:
swallowed into my right hemishpere - where it deceptively shined
spit out by my left - where the carefully crafted hoodwinking was exposed
the revelation of Truth I suppose, I
accepted in spite--
inspite of him, I
accepted him
despite of me, and my
overextension of what never was
my amplification of what I needed but never received
but abstracted out of nothing but:lies
maybe, not lies
but constant denials
of what really was and who we really are
and much greater than that who we, in all actuality,
are to our own selves, to the world...
but even more importantly who we are were to each other,
when we were together...the undiscovered truth of the conundrum, called us.

I can be faster than a ray of light...maybe...possibly...kinna!

As I strive to come in first
in a race to the edge of the world
within nanoseconds as I make my approach
I begin to see it
the beginning of life
the proclaiming light
warming my tense heart as I get closer
I feel it reaching out for me
I run at a speed faster than my lazy ass has ever travelled before
Finally making to the end
I instantly stop
instantly I realize how much the bottom of my feet burn
instantly I realize how much my left cheek burns
.....that god damn sun instantly slapped the shit out of me.

UNcontrol

Caught between what is and what oughta be

Comes a silent chant from the gods of choice

Loud and clear but never to the right ear

Instead muted millions of decibels inside our

conscious, the unconscious sector of our

twisted minds

Unintentionally CONformed and DEformed

by forces hardly under our control

Only through a silent meditation

an intensified aerobic session for the mind

can we untangle the truth

our destiny no, our surprise happy ending.

Tired.

Feeling out of breath,
yet I continue to run
...driven by a second wind?
No...pure yet refined madness -
my world - my life - my mind --- mad

I need a vacation.